Changes.....

Hello... 

A lot has happened in my life since my last entry here on May 5th of this year. As much as it goes against the grain of who I am, I am going to focus here on music, what I've been doing musically, and leave the personal things completely out of the mix, so to speak. 

The last 8 years of my life have been a constant, spinning wheel of change, and as I am generally just a stick in the mud, I don't do change well. Necessity has dictated otherwise though, and the last few years, actually the last 13 months or so, have made me prioritize my life like I've never done before. My main priority, after all is said and done, is the one thing that has never left me....Music. 

I have quite a semi-usable back-log of already recorded songs, 36 all in all, that I had to make a decision about. Delete them all, like I have done so very many times in the past, or put them out in a CD for people to hear. In my life, I have lost/deleted/forgotten/thrown out/burned or had destroyed by loved ones in excess of well over 500 songs. Every one of those lost songs were a snippet of a broad road map of my Heart, Soul, mind and life, and I must admit that I cringe when thinking of how I foolishly tossed them out, in hopes that with them, would go the sadness or heartache that I oft times put into my music. so, this time I made a different decision...

With the encouragement and help from a few kind friends, I have gone ahead and produced my first "real" CD. The hours I spent not only writing these tunes, but mixing, mastering, editing etc. are countless, so it goes without saying that I am not putting this CD out in hopes of making money, because that's not going to happen, nor is it in any way of any great importance to me. While I have more than enough songs for 2 CD's, I felt it important to release certain ones first, and hold off on the others for a while. Maybe forever. But the songs on this CD are some of the most heartfelt, sincere and truly inspired songs I have ever had the good fortune to write/record, and I would be sorely amiss if I took all the credit for myself. The words, music and emotion for the bulk of these tunes, were culled from deep within my Heart and Soul, and literally had to be ripped from deep within me. 

I have to thank a few people/things, with the first being God. Without God in my life, I would not have the grey matter left to be sitting here writing these words to you, and as much as I have not always been a "Good Christian" (whatever that means), I have never, even at my darkest and scariest moments, turned my back on God. While the songs contained on this CD are anything but non secular, as I do not write Christian music, the first "thank you" for giving me the strength to carry on even in the darkest times, would be to my Higher Power...So, Thank You God. Then there is my muse. I once thought that a muse was simply a myth, some Greek mythology word that didn't exist in the real world... But no. If you are a creative person, you may find your muse in the setting sun, on a beach, in a memory, in a painting, or as I had experienced, in a real person. I was very fortunate to have been graced with my muse for almost 7 years, and most of the songs on this CD are a direct result of that time. So, a sincere and heartfelt Thank You goes to my Muse.Then there are the people who love me. I don't toss out the L word with reckless abandon like I used to. While there are different kinds of Love, and many different levels, these people seem to actually LIKE me, for no reason other than the fact that I am.. me. That blows me away to such a degree, that the only way I can actually define it is by using the word Love. The kind of Love one gets from a friend. An unconditional Love. I have not allowed myself to be liked by people in the past, let alone allowed anyone other than a significant other to get inside of me, until now. When I came to realize there were actually people out there who not only loved my music, but actually like the man behind it, the man who is me, it blew my mind. I stopped fighting. 

The CD will be ready within the next 2 weeks. More to come then.... Peace... Cooper.

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